maclosophy

2009-03-10T23:59:00.004+08:00

gosh..u are telling me what to do and what not?why don't u look yourself in the mirror and then check up on what the f**k u are doing in ur life..all the stayovers, not putting in effort in ur studies, wasting ur parents and brothers effort to worry abt u, all ur irresponsibilities and all the crap shit we have to endure from you?guess what..i have given up on u..totally lost my respect for u and i get totally annoyed and irritated with everything u do and wish u just stay away and leave me alone..after all its your life..u want to screw it?damn it...be my guest..

end of jan.

2009-01-27T23:33:00.002+08:00

havent blog-ed since the new year post...wah..so fast 1 mth has past..and im 18 and legal..woohoo..

so jan was like so happening..julian's chalet, cny, r-paper results...

julian's chalet was awesome..mj-ed all day all night hah...thanks to everyone for the presents and the cake..oh..and of cos smashing the cake at me and making me smell like puke.hah.

then it was cny..as a yearly routine, woke up and went to 2 temples to pray to my ancestors(though i dont believe in it, but out of respect of my mum=.=), then went to my father's side relative which is getting lesser and lesser each year..got like 3 angpows there..haha..then went to mother's side relative..really enjoyable and happy to see all my cousins, nephew and nieces...all super cute and adorable..hah..but was a lil guilty to see my granny as she's getting thinner by the year and i rarely see her, in fact prob once or twice a year..feel pretty much a unfilial grandson..zz..

rahh...anyhow...and the suckiest thing this jan is my R-paper results...all S again..like wth..crapp...but it really dont affect me...not sad or what..don't know what's wrong with me..perhaps i'm taking everything all too easy?but shouldn't we look on the positive side?grrr...

off to watch my fav drama 24 now...bye all...happy cny!

the best subway cookies ever..=D

2009!

2009-01-02T02:25:00.002+08:00

2009 is a new beginning once again, and a chance to make it a better year and not commit the same stupid mistakes all over again. A new headstart, but honestly how long will it last?just as i told myself at the beginning of every new year that i'm gonna change..i did, but it was always for a short period of time..maybe its time for me to learn to be mature and start to think abt my future..maybe it will be a lifelong motivation..

so what i hope to achieve in the new year?the 1st of cos is to be able to do well for my Re-papers(damn it..its like a wk away..really hope to be able to stay on in VJ...)next..i wld really want to become a better son, brother, and most imptly a better person whom can keep his cool and no more wtfs or what..

oh and of cos my bball career!hope to bring it up to another level...being a smarter and mature player...but no matter what..i will be just contented to play alongside my Tagawa and VJ teammates..the brotherhood and fighting spirit tts keeps my passion going..so guys..let's train hard and perform well in our respective competitions k?=D

anyway..just wish everyone the best in 2009 and may everything be of a success...yeehaa!

have you ever loved somebody so much it makes you cry, have you ever needed something so bad you can't sleep at night, have you ever tried to find the words but they don't come out right, have you ever...

driving me crazy!

2008-12-29T22:56:00.002+08:00

study!study!study!study!study!study!study!study!study!study!study!study!study!study!study!study!study!study!study!study!study!study!study!study!study!study!

argh..mugging yet again..kaos..approx. 10 days to PHYSICS.omg.GOD PLS BLESS ME!

how i wish i could just swallow up the notes or there will be like a smarty-pill tt will make me smarter..damn it..

rah...

love meltdown.

HAPPY BOXING DAY!

2008-12-26T01:32:00.003+08:00

happy BOXING day all!yee ha!

its 135am now and i'm so bored, don't feel like studying, dont feel like slping or watching tv..just feel like staring into blank space listening to emo songs and think of YOU.

so ytd was 1 of the best christmas i had..although we didnt do much or what but its the company that really made the christmas even more special..went to marina square to meet julian, hw, julynn & lydia for lunch.and as usual, all the late comers..haiss..haha..had thai express for lunch and then went bowling..we were like retards luh!!total amatuers!(except for julian who was pretty sei..but accuracy abit =.= also..lol)but it was really fun lah..just being crazy and crapping and of cos cam-whoring!(zzz...hw..the no. of photos we took ytd really more than what we have took all our life lor..lol!)

then went on the clarke quay to meet twins, jiahong, fat nic, and wh for dinner at brewerkz!hah..twins were 2 kukus worrying that we couldnt order beer w/o being checked...lol..but lucky they didnt luh...or it really would have spoilt the night..haha..and so nic got kinda drunk..siao kia..chiong beer..lol..the beer was really good but seriously i dont think its worth the money lah..50bucks for the dinner..=.=..i think can go other place with better food and drinks lor..haha..but nvm!its christmas!yee ha!

aft tt, went back to julians hse to countdown christmas..haha!more alcohol!were suppose to play MJ but end up playing cards and watching tv..but when it was 12..we started wishing each other..and it was kinda cool..all started reading the christmas cards and there was a sudden silence and laughter..really love the cards=D..thanks double juls' hw...the cards were really touching=D...

nothing much to do tmr..except tagawa trg...so i think i'm gonna study..i mean i must...14more days to RE-paper...zz..wt kong...how to study when its the festive mood...arghh..anyhow..sucks luh..anyway..i'm outta here..nights all!

yee ha!=D

you know you just mean the world to me..

Christmas!

2008-12-24T00:27:00.005+08:00

so i have not blogged for quite some time...well..pretty much because there isn't much to write abt..but today was awesome!met someone special, who is ever busy!hah..and had dinner with my lil' bro..heh..

and so we decided to catch bolt after much thinking of whether to go do something else..hah..nvm!we shall go prawning or blading or whatever another time=D.

then i met Julynn GOH for dinner..sorry ESG but my movie ended late so couldnt join u guys for sakura..and so it was like dinner for me only..stupid julynn..eat dinner at home=.=thanks eh..but nevertheless..it was great to sit there with the strong breeze and talk cock and simply talk abt anything!right j?=D

so christmas is coming...in like 2days!woohoo!christmas is like so exciting!every christmas is so different for me...but this year would probably be awesome..going to meet julian and gang for don't know what...then dinner with col, doug, fred...the marist gang..then probably going to stayover for MJ at julian's place...haha!how can we miss out on our beloved MJ right?=D

anyway...alot of things have been passing through my mind even now as i'm typing..alot of ppl has been urging me to return to church...honestly, i feel like returning to HIM..but on the other hand..i'm not rdy to commit and jeopardize my freedom..moreover i have lot of doubts still..arghh...just stop asking me to go church pls..i will go when i feel tt the time is right..

another thing tt is going through me is YOU...yeah you...i can't stop thinking abt you..its simply a feeling so strong..the thought of you just keeps the smile on my face..and you know it..

owells..christmas is a time of confession and expressing love to those you care..so do make use of the opportunity and also don't be stingy!just be a spendthrift this christmas!enjoy to the max!because christmas is a time of joy..don't spoil the occasion!=D

anyway...lazy to blog already...gonna catch my XNR!woohoo..my fav chi drama..heh..so zhao all!MERRY CHRISTMAS!GOD BLESS!

this are men whom i will die for=D

christmas!

2008-12-15T03:22:00.006+08:00

was freaking tired today(plus the weather was like so ideal for sleeping), so i slept till like 8 or 9pm...woo...shiok..

double trg ytd..tired!and adidas trg was damn boring..i nearly slp while the coach was going through some plays!heh..so me right huiwen!but by the time trg ended, we were like totally drained..but went dinner with julian, 18 chefs!cheese baked rice..just had a craving for tt..well, and so we didn't felt like going home...or rather me only, and we just sat at the bus stop benches and talked for abt an hr or so..haha..really felt good to just talk abt anything to ur pal=Ddude..just follow ur heart!will always be there to support you!

so when i woke up..its was like wah!wu jian dao 2 was showing..nice..then advertisement switched channel, wow! superman was showing too!so i was like switching here and there..but my favourite was love actually..which was showing aft all the nice shows..really a pretty sweet show to watch with ur love ones..

ohohoh!!and i am so addicted to the 小娘惹 song!douglas your fault lah!send me..really can't stop listening to it now..the lyrics are like so profound but yet so meaningful..and the show is like damn nice lah..so to those who nv watch..you should go watch!

《如燕》
词曲：陈佳明
编曲：Terence Teo
制作人：陈佳明
演唱：Olivia Ong

愿意合上眼才能美梦无边
yuan yi he shang yan cai neng mei mo wu bian
别让悔熏乌了从前
bie rang hui xun wu le cong qian
也许碎片才能让回忆展颜
ye xu sui pian cai neng rang hui yi zhan yan
何妨瓷花拼凑明天
he fan ci hua ping zhuo ming tian
谁带我寻获幸福的模
shui dai wo xun huo xin fu de mo
却自己谜中困锁
que zi ji mi zhong kun suo
谁为我留下缱绻的天涯
shui wei wo liu xia qian quan de tian ya
信物是抹晚霞
xin wu shi mo wan xia

Chorus:
思念如燕它飞舞舌尖
si nian ru yan ta fei wu she jian
若是真爱配尝几分苦甜
ruo shi zhen ai pei chang ji fen ku tian
意念婆娑时间里推磨
yi nian po suo shi jian li tui mo
追随到何处才结果
zhui sui dao he chu cai jie guo
燕如针线在青空缝编
yan ru zhen xian zai qing kong feng pian
几幅女红将以泪缀点
ji fu nv hong jiang yi lei zhui dian
誓言斑驳情雾只是经过
shi yan ban bo qing wu zhi shi jing guo
风雨中且让我盈步婀娜
feng yu zhong qie rang wo ying bu e nuo

christmas is a season where you tell the truth!

friends=D

2008-12-12T02:08:00.002+08:00

wow..friends..they really are so damn impt...not tt family aint impt but the fact is, how many of us really share our problems and sorrows with our family?as a matter of fact, i guess 90% of us dont..we turn to our friends,good friends,best friends..anyone we feel comfortable to talk to..and its always great to know tt he/she cares..and they offer u the best support and encouragements u need..so i will just like to thank all my friends...especially those whom are always there for me..i love you all!

was really shocked to hear tt bazang teared her ligament, really sad and i really dont know what to say and i can't say i know how she feel because i can't imagine the day i have to stop playing bball..yes..our love and passion...but grace!just know that there is whole lot of other things in this world that u will/can fall in love with k?cheer up!we will always be there for you!do take care while in hk k?see ya in a mth!and ya,study hard!=D

and thank you yinling!=D the convo with you was heartwarming and really thanks for all the encouragements and advices!"now that u realise ur TRUE love, pls strive hard to give her a FUTURE",haha..gonna study hard for tt sentence from u!but really, thanks for being so naggy...u nag becos u care!haha..take care in UK ah..i m expecting a big present!haha..have fun!

and so another wk past and its much much closer to the R papers...damn it..how i wish i could just swallow the notes!zzz..i need the momentum!arghhh...

true love waits.

confidence!

2008-12-10T02:18:00.004+08:00

damn disappointed with myself, with my shit performance. damn it!argh...what is wrong with me??!!what am i afraid of?why am i shooting airballs?!gotta do something bout the confidence!zzz..

disappointments aft disappointments...just what am i?a f**king failure?

SLACK!

2008-12-07T23:04:00.004+08:00

damn!its dec and the study mood hasn't really kicked in when it shld be..zz..been slacking quite alot..really need to pull up my socks(literally too!)..

anyhow!went for overnight mj session ytd with vj-mates, wx,julian,jason and chng chinboon(a.k.a c.c.b)..lol..played from 11+ till abt 9 or 10 in the morning!!!shiok..haha..end up lost $5 to wx..well..but at least i had 2plates of my fav nasi lemak..=D

so i got home and i wasn't feeling tired at all, so i stayed online and played some guitar and soon my aunties and uncles were over for mj!and my little niece, charmaine!such a cute girl.was watching tv when i dozed off and when i woke up it was like 9 already?zz...kinda wasted the whole day..but nvm!still got the night..heh..

oh!!and i forget to mentioned tt on sat adidas trg got cancelled due to the 'rain'=D...it was like SHIOK!haha..was just feeling lazy to train luh uh..what's new...it's just me i guess..heh..

ok..i shld really go study now..and really..now!shoo-ed!

absence makes the heart grow fonder.quickly come back.

time to start the engine going!

2008-12-02T00:47:00.002+08:00

And so the time to start mugging full force has started again..all the hopes pinned on me to at least get promoted, but i'm definitely aiming higher then tt, though i'm really unsure if i really can make it. A for maths and E for the rest of the subjs, not to mention, a pair of new shoes from jiaolian if i pass all my R-papers...haha..my room has once again become a battleground and i hope this time it will be victory and not defeat..the feeling of starting to mug again sucks..but i remembered someone telling me tt having the R-papers might be a blessing in disguise..for all i know it will give me a headstart in revising all my subjs for the A lvls..haha..how motivating and optimistic leh...i hope it be true then..

So from this moment on, it shall be study,study,and still study!!!(of cos with some play...but minimal i hope=D)to those who also have R-papers, don't worry!you are not alone!heh..and to those w/o any R-papers..don't be too happy yet ahh...at least i get to revise my work, and u don't!(still trying to live in denial =.=)

Off to study now!gym tmr...like finally..night all!

Carrie Underwood - Just A Dream

It was two weeks after the day she turned eighteen
All dressed in whiteGoing to the church that night
She had his box of letters in the passenger seat
Sixpence in her shoe, something borrowed, something blue
And when the church doors opened up wide
She put her veil down
Trying to hide the tears
Oh she just couldn't believe it
She heard the trumpets from the military band
And the flowers fell out of her hand

Baby why'd you leave me
Why'd you have to go?
I was counting on forever, now I'll never know
I can't even breathe
It's like I'm looking from a distance
Standing in the background
Everybody's saying, he's not coming home now
This can't be happening to me
This is just a dream

The preacher man said let us bow our heads and pray
Lord please lift his soul, and heal this hurt
Then the congregation all stood up and sang
The saddest song that she ever heard
Then they handed her a folded up flag
And she held on to all she had left of him
Oh, and what could have been
And then the gun's rang one last shot
And it felt like a bullet in her heart

Baby why'd you leave me
Why'd you have to go?
I was counting on forever, now I'll never know
I can't even breathe
It's like I'm looking from a distance
Standing in the background
Everybody's saying, he's not coming home now
This can't be happening to me
This is just a dream

Oh, Baby why'd you leave me
Why'd you have to go?
I was counting on forever, now
I'll never know
Oh, I'll never know
It's like I'm looking from a distance
Standing in the background
Everybody's saying, he's not coming home now
This can't be happening to me
This is just a dream

Oh, this is just a dream
Just a dream
Yeah, Yeah

drunk!

2008-11-30T22:15:00.006+08:00

had double trg ytd, sch and adidas, pretty fun then went for dinner with weehoe, julian, huiwen and liang kai at bedok market. Aft tt, didn't felt like going home so decided to go to julian hse to "drink". We played bridge and dai di and the loser had to drink. Julian was the ultimate bridge loser and drank alot, however, i drank pretty much too and soon i was drank!for the 1st time in my life. The feeling sucks i swear! its like my head was super heavy and it was spinning, i couldnt even stand straight and was swaying left and right whenever i tried to stand. Weehoe was the best tanker ytd and i was suppose to go home with him but i really couldnt tahan and called mum to tell her say i staying over at julian hse.HAHA.sorry weehoe.=D

Zee called at 11am this morning to wake me up(lucky, if not i cfm overslp again..haha). Went town to gaigai with zee, jiarong, kianleong and jason(fat one=D). Jr and I bought a fossil wallet and kl the woose who wanted to buy a new pair of slippers really a super frickled minded guy.haha. We caught Madagascar 2, pretty gay=.=, 5 guys watching cartoon, wthh..but who cares...really a cute and funny show..heh..then we decided to eat at Astons, shiok!the fries was like godlike..the steak was even more godlike and ppl in queue right outside watching us eat while we savour our meals was super = priceless..lol..

After that we didn't know where to go so decided to play guitarhero, but it was like $30/hr, wtf =.=..so we settled for LAN and played CS for 1hr...haha..fun with 5 noobs trying to kill each other..reliving the CS days..

only time will tell?

What's your deepest fear?

2008-11-29T01:11:00.006+08:00

God..and so i got home from trg, switched on my comp to check the latest news of the mumbai attacks..my heart sank when i saw the headlines "S'porean Hostage Killed"..i teared..and this sparked many thoughts that have been in me for quite some time..What's your deepest fear?death?not doing well enough academically?or losing someone close?

I've just finished reading 'The Last Lecture' by Randy Pausch (thanks for the inspiration and you will always be remembered). Randy was dying due to pancreatic cancer, however, he chose to spend his last days to give the lecture and even if it means to forsake the time he had left with his family. I feel so inspired and touched by every single chapter of the book. My personal favourite is the part he was talking abt his childhood dream to become a imagineer at disneyland but was rejected, he waited abt 20years i think before he tried again and finally realised tt dream and he said "brick walls are there not to stop you, but they are there to show how badly you want something..."This quote has become the drive in me and i hope it will also inspire those who read my blog.

Then there was Yong Qiang's motorbike accident, really shocked when i heard abt it but was so glad he and his girl is fine though with some scars. Get better soon yeah...

So what's my deepest fear?Honestly, i think my deepest fear is to lose someone dear. I can't imagine the feeling of that..Although i don't even know the hostage who got killed, i do feel sad, because she is someone's daughter, friend, wife..and the suckiest part is she was just at the wrong place at the wrong time...

Life is simply unpredictable. So guys, pls!treasure every single min as the last and don't take things forgranted,esp your loved ones.

Gonna slp now.Got trg and trg tmr!zz..Bye all!

Miles away yet my heart still longs for you.

1st post!

2008-11-28T02:02:00.005+08:00

Wow!and so i finally have a blog, like wth, abit late but who cares. Just wanted a place for me to vent every single emotions i have in me, so thought maybe a blog will do good, aft all, it may just improve my english!

Ahhh...don't really know where to begin with, well, maybe another shocking news?i got my ear pierced like finally?!always wanted to pierced but didn't know how to tell mum, finally decided to heck her and just pierce and wait for her to find out herself and nag at me for a few days.(my ingenious plan =.=)

ohh!and its coming to the end of nov!1 more mth to sch reopen and my final verdict of staying in vj or going to poly shall be revealed!damn!really want to do well for the R-papers, but really don't know if i can do it. Gonna start to study my ass off starting now!yeah!and i mean now NOW!so bye ppl!

what's on ur mind?just wished i could get u off my mind...